Saturday, April 15, 2006

Tagged by TEHL ... 25 questions ... :)

Another hard day of studying later ... decided to get this tag done as I'd promised to get to it by Sunday ... :) Ah, Easter tommorow ... shld get in atleast a lil' bit of R&R, just for a change in pace ...

Anyways, here's the tag ... Thanks for this Ego .. :)

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.

“What man is there among you who has one sheep, and if it falls into a pit on the Sabbath will not lay hold of it and lift it out?"

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.

Stretched out ... touching thin air ... :)

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

the end of the movie "SWAT" while I was having dinner

4.Without looking, guess what time it is?

around 10 pm

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

lolz..its 9.45 pm ..

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

I've the headphones on ... listening to a song that DEG sent me ... Hazaaron Kwaishen Aisi ... really good song ...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

This evening ... with the books on the terrace ... I always do this in the evenings ... that way I'm studying and getting some fresh air too ... :)

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

... my email ...

9. What are you wearing?

A T shirt & football shorts

10. Did you dream last night?

Yes ... met some friends ... and also an ex-flame ... :)

11. When did you last laugh?

Just a lil' while ago with Mom and sis over one of my countless lame comments ... :)

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Paint ... off-white colour ... then there's a painting ... a clock ... 2 spiders ... 5 mosquitoes ... wait ... one flew off ... so 4 mosquitoes ... wait ... now there's 3 ... I killed one ... so ... hehehhe :)

13. Seen anything weird lately?

not really ... this survey is quite wierd though ... ;)

14. What do u think of this quiz?

lolz ... Lame Lame Lame ... but good TP ... and I needed to do somethhing like this to get my mind off studies ... and go off to sleep peacefully! :)

15.What is the Last film u saw?

The Passion of the Christ ... Good Friday night on Star Movies ... a grim reminder of the price that was paid for me ...

16. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?

A nice flat first ... then I'd invest the rest somewhere ... I'm not really a splurger ... but some goos DVDs and a computer upgrade would be on the cards!

17. Tell me something about you that I dunno.

I have 6 fingers on each of my feet

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

I'd take over Google and Microsoft and rule the world!!! :) yes I'd name the new co ... Anup's Moogle

19. Do you like to dance?

Oh yes... I dance allright!

20. George Bush

I don't give a damn ... not worth the effort ...

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Sarah (means Princess)... Or
Joan/Joanna (means God's gracious gift)

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Samuel (means Heard by God/Answer to prayer) ... Or
Joshua (means Whom God has saved) ... Or
Jonathan (means God's gift)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Oh yes! it wld be good ... I imagine ... :)

24.What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

You've done well, faithful servant ... Come on in ...

25. People who may do this memo in their journal.

Anyone's who's got time for this??? tell me ... :)

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Good Friday Spl - The poet's choice

Hiya All,

I'm really sorry for not answering your comments sooner ... but, I'm now on study leave (yes, the people at work agreed :)

... so although I do come online for a bit every night (when I'm completely tired of studying) ... I usually just check my mail (yes, ur comments do come to my inbox) ... and as much as I wanna answer right then and there, I had to wait ... :(

But, I do love getting those comments from ya all ... I miss ya all and can hardly wait to get back to active blogging ...

... till then, here's one for Good Friday ...

The Poet's Choice - AnupR
He wanders the wilderness
Searching for elusive peace n happiness
All them fancy toys do entertain
But what 'bout the emptiness?
What 'bout the pain?

Unable to sleep (as usual)
He kneels beside the bed
With hands stretched heavenward
He cries out in despair

"Is there anyone up there?
Do you even care?
I dunno what I'm doing anymore
I'm tired of this whole affair!"

He longs for an answer
But the silence remains
So he doesn't restrain the tears anymore
And slides into his chair

As he sits there, drink in hand
He thinks of the happy days long gone by
Carefree days in mother's arms
Listening to stories of the Promised Land
He struggles to remember the prayers
she prayed before the lights went out
... before she kissed him and said Good Night

Pondering these things ... ancient memories ... suddenly ...
He bows down ... gets on his knees
He realizes the significance of the tree
He was blind but now he sees

I am that person ... I am he
I've made my choice for eternity

this was partly autobiographical ... i needed to record this for posterity ... :)
(sorry if i bored ya ...)

Anyways, wishing the world and my dear buddies a Very Happy and Blessed Easter!!! (in advance) :)


Friday, April 07, 2006

Alvin's story - the missing pieces .....

"Daddy, look at this .... "

Alvin walks over to his lil' angel. He sits down on the floor beside her, and she climbs into his lap .... he smiles weakly, as she holds a worn out photo album ...

"That's me, your mom and our friend"

She looks at the photo, then at Alvin and smiles .... she then runs off to her mom .... "Mom, Mom look at what I have ...."

Alvin gets up slowly and walks out into the garden ... nostalgic, he slips into one of the lawn chairs and closes his eyes .... the memories come flooding in ... the day he gathered courage to confess his love for Mischa but decided not to ... Mischa was so excited as she told him of her marriage plans .... he couldn't do this to her ... he couldn't stand the thought of complicating her life ... and he also couldn't stand by and pretend to be happy as the one he loved slipped out of his reach ... a few phone calls later he was off to the US ...

"Honey, what are you doing out here in the sun?"

"Nothing dear .... just thinking ..."

"She's gone, Alvin ... please let it be ... you go off on a walk down that lane ... I .... "

Eliza walks away ....

Alvin gets up immediately and runs after her .... He stops her before she gets to the door. He leads her to the shade and they both sit down on the lawn ...

"I'm sorry dear ... When she showed me that photo .... those were good times .... "

"Yes Alvin, those were good days ..."

Alvin reaches out and holds Eliza's hand ....

"I love you Eliza ... you've always been my best friend ... you've always been there for me ... you've always understood me ... and put up with so many of my quirks ... "

Eliza smiles ... "Quirks? ... now that's an understatement!"

They both start laughing ...

After a long pause ....
"Have I been a bad husband?"

"No Alvin ... you are a wonderful husband, my best friend and an excellent father ... its just that I was a bit irritated and .... "

"I'm Sorry Eliza ... I really am ... its just that I wanted to say goodbye ... I left for the US so suddenly ... I never talked to her since ... and then her accident ... I just wanted to say goodbye "

"Alvin, I'd promised Mischa that I'd never mention this ... but I can't stand seeing you like this any more ... she'd forgiven you a long time ago ... she remained a good friend ... I was in touch with her all the while ... she knew why you left for the US ... she knew about us dating ... how you proposed on New Year's Eve ... she was really pleased when I sent our wedding snaps ... "

"So Mischa knew all along? ... so why didn't she let you tell me?"

"She just thought you were a bit confused about what you felt for her ... she thought it'd be better this way ... I couldn't break ... "

Just then, their lovely daughter runs out to them ... and jumps into Eliza's arms ...

... half an hour later we see ... Eliza and Alvin lying on the grass ... looking into each others eyes ... saying nothing .... but smiling as they glance at their lil' Mischa sleeping .... not a care in the world ... good times ....

.... and they lived happily ever after .......

Guess, this part answers a few of the questions you had ... :) But, do let me know if you see any more loose ends ...

Have a great weekend ya all! :)


Thursday, April 06, 2006

Alvin's story .... concluding part ...

Hiya All,

Here is the concluding part of Alvin's story ..... my latest work ......
... for those who don't remember ... part 1... :)

"Are you the one who places flowers here every year?"

after a long pause, he replies....

".... Yes..."

"But why? ... How had you known her?"

"We were classmates"

"I don't recall seeing you ... What did you say your name was?

"Alvin ... we've never met before Ma'm... "

"Alvin? ....... yes, I do recall Mischa mentioning you ... but if I'm right, you'd left Bombay and moved to the US .... "

"1997? .... Yes ... but I moved back in a year"

"... and you didn't contact her?"

"Well, friends told me she'd married and moved to Hyderabad .... and I wasn't able to get in touch later on ... too busy with business and stuff ..."

"... well, you should have .... she considered you a good friend .... If you don't mind, can we talk for a while?"

"Actually, I really need to rush ..... "

"Alvin, today it's four years .... it all happened so fast .... I miss her very much .... "

"I miss her very much too, Aunty .... I'm really sorry .... "

after a long pause ....
"... Isn't Eliza with you?"

"How did you know about Eliza and me?"

"Friends told Mischa, and so I know ... "

"Eliza usually comes with me every year ... but she's due anyday .... so she's with her parents ..."

"Congratulations ... that's good news ..."

Alvin just smiles .... then kneels by the grave, and rearranges the flowers ...

"Mischa always loved carnations .... "

"Yes ... that she did ...."

both remain silent for a while .... and then they start walking away from the grave ....

"Alvin .... Mischa told me everything ... so I know why you left for the US ... She was very upset that you left without telling her ... but, she understood .... I remember how happy she was when she heard that Eliza and you got married ... she was even planning to visit you and personally convey her wishes ... but then .... "

"Yes, it was a complete shock to us .... we were in the US at that time ... we rushed home, but were too late to say goodbye ...."

Alvin's cell phone rings ... its Eliza's mom on the line ....

"Aunty, I'm a Dad! ... a beautiful baby girl!"

"That's really great .... did you speak to Eliza then?"

"No, to her mom .... but Eliza's okay ... she's just a lil' drowsy now ..."

"So, have you decided on a name for her?"

"Eliza decided for us ..... we'll call her ................ Mischa"

Peace Out!


Sunday, April 02, 2006

I've had enough ...

I've been very patient
I kept hoping I was wrong about you
But from the way things are going
And from what my eyes are seeing
There's very lil' chance that it ain't true

Do you take me for a lovestruck fool?
You are partly right ...
... lovestruck? Oh yes!
But I ain't no fool!

I tried to ignore the obvious ...
that you don't really care for me
that you aren't really a friend to me
that you're just using me
that I'm just a means to an end
coz' you know that I'm a true friend
(even though you're not)

Yes, so I always knew you were playing me
Just like you play everyone else
But I still played along
Hoping so bad that I was wrong
Hoping so bad that you'd start to care
Hoping that you'd actually become a friend

But, it's been a monumental waste
It ain't worth it no more
It's started to really trouble me
Not that I'm being used ...
... For you I can do anything!
It just seems so sad ...
... its a mockery of my adoration

Stop pretending to be a friend!
I'll help you anyway I can
... whenever I can ...
But just stop pretending ...
... stop abusing my love
... stop exploting my weakness ...
... my fondness for you ...

You've always been a great player
... playing the game the world loves ...
... and playing it well
You know to push the right buttons
You know how to work that charm
You know how to get things done

So I'm sure you'll succeed
that you'll make serious progress in life
And I don't mind it one bit!
I'll be happy when I see you succeed

I'm just sad that you're playing me
I'm just sad that you're pretending
I'm not a fool ... I've had enough
I know who you are ... the games you play
So please just stop ...
Please stop playing me

EDIT:- Okay, I've had to field questions from many friends as regards who I'm talking about ... they were especially concerned if it was them .. lolz .. :)
I just wanna end the speculation and say that I've been her friend for a really long time ... but after a year and half, I'm entitled to get tired of being played ... by someone I love ....

Guys, this was a spur of the moment rant ... just to get some frustration out of my system ...

there are a lot of things going on in my life ... that's why I've not been visiting u guys for a while ... family, studies and career too ... a lot of mess needs to be sorted out ... God have mercy on me ... So please do pray for me ...