Friday, March 24, 2006

Poem - Wishes

Poem - Wishes - AnupR

The love I have for you
Has got nothing to do
... with what you think 'bout me

I love you. That's it.
It's okay if you don't care one bit.

If you want me to leave
... I'll go away
If you want me around
... I'll gladly stay
It makes no difference to me

I'm gonna keep wishing what I've always wished for you
Keep praying the prayer that I've always prayed for you
And as surely as I see the sky, so blue
I'll keep hoping these wishes come true

May shining sucess always be your crown
May humilty and grace always be your gown
May your good deeds bring you renown
May your praises be sung all over town

May you have a long and blissful life
... free of any pain, sorrow or strife
and may your love, love you forever
... far above his own life

I wish I always see you smiling and dancing
... that I always hear you singing and rejoicing
and I wish I see
your face light up with glee
as your hopes and dreams become reality

And even as you slowly forget all about me
In some corner of the world will I be
... wishing these wishes become reality

letting go of someone you love ... but wishing the best for them always ... the best way to part ... me thinks ;)


Tagged!!! - 7 songs I'm into right now ...

I was tagged by - the_ego_has_landed. Thanks buddy! :)

Well, I'm not one who bothers to keep up with the times (in case of music, that is). But, the ones I'm enjoying right now are:

I'm a believer (OST Shrek)
And then I saw her face
Now I'm a believer.
Not a trace
Of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love
I'm a believer, I couldn't leave her
if I tried

Madonna - You'll See
You think that I can't live, without your love
You'll see
You think I can't go on, another day
You think I have nothing, without you by my side
You'll see, somehow, some way
All by myself, I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive I know I'll stay alive

Madonna - Sorry
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'

Superchick - Beauty from pain
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

Finley Quaye - Dice (one of the themes from The OC)
I was crying over you
I am smiling I think of you
Where your garden have no walls
Breathe in the air if you care, you compare, don't say farewell
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love's for me
Nothing can compare

Keane - Walnut Tree (one of the themes from The OC)
Underneath the walnut tree,
Where you said you'd wait for me,
And I waited a long, long time
And I waited a long, long time
Why, why do I come here?
Seeking out the memories I hold dear,
'Cause you put your spell on me,
Made me live a memory,
And im frozen in just the wrong time.

Superchick - Get Up
I'm not afraid to fall
It means I climbed up high
To fall is not to fail
You fail when you don't try
I'm not afraid to fall
I might just learn to fly
And I will spread these wings of mine.

Rather unconventional mix, I must admit ... but that's what I am ... :)

Anyways, I tag everyone who hasn't completed this tag already ... :)

This was fun! :)

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

The Da Vinci Code ... the controversy ....

Okay guys, so far I've avoided discussions on religion and politics ... coz' it only leads to endless debate ... but, a recent post by a fellow blogger (Puneet), and the rave reviews this book I've heard from colleagues and acquantances has prompted me to sit up and take notice ...

I quote Puneet - "Coming to the Book… it will shatter your trust on Christianity and God… some times its difficult to doubt the facts are narrated in the book… or rather the way in which they are narrated…"

Basically I do not care what you believe in ... so long as both sides of the story are made available to you ... when you make that decision to believe ... whatever it is that you believe ...

So, here is the other side of the story ...
1. (very extensive)
1. (reasonably extensive)
2. (short)

Q. Mike, have you read “The Da Vinci Code?” What do you think of the book’s views on Jesus, Mary Magdalene, the formation of the New Testament, and the Holy Grail?
Mike Scott: Yes, I have recently read the book. While traveling a few weeks ago I took the opportunity to borrow a copy from my Sister-in-Law. I read a few chapters and then realized that I needed my own copy and immediately purchased one. I do so much reading in theology that it is not often that I have the opportunity to read a novel. I’m a little behind the times because I understand this book was released in March of 2003, and that it has sold more than 7.5 million copies world wide.

At first I found the book a little slow in developing. I like a good John Grisham novel or one by Nicholas Sparks, or Robert Crais. “The DA Vinci Code” is slow to develop. As I got into it a little more, I found it somewhat more interesting, but problematic because of the numerous historical errors and misrepresentations it presents about Bible characters, teachings and traditions.

Dan Brown obviously borrowed heavily from a number of sources for his concepts as can be clearly seen with in the text of his novel. A book called “Holy Blood, Holy Grail,” by Michael Baigent, Richard Leigh, and Henry Lincoln released in 1982 contains the basic story line that Brown uses in “The DA Vinci Code.” It’s also obvious that the book borrows heavily from “The Gnostic Gospels” by Elaine Pagels; “The Templar Revelation: Secret Guardians of the True Identity of Christ” by Lynn Picknett and Clive Prince; “The Goddess in the Gospels”: Reclaiming the Sacred Feminine and “The Woman with the Alabaster Jar”: Mary Magdalene and the Holy Grail, both by Margaret Starbird; and “The Woman’s Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets” by Barbara G. Walker. Brown alludes to the Gnostic gospels of Phillip and Mary.

This book is another in a long line of “Searching for the Holy Grail” books which attempts to draw the reader into a desperate and impossible attempt to attain the Holy Grail, which this book now represents as Mary Magdalene and her blood line, since, as the book presents in novel form, Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and had a number of children. Whatever the Bible teaches on these subjects is of little consequence because, the book states, “almost everything our fathers taught us about Christ is false.” (DVC p. 235).

I would not even take the time to address this issue were it not for the fact that Brown makes a claim of scholarship in his book that will lead many astray from the truth. On a page titled “FACT”, one page ahead of his prologue, Brown states, “All descriptions of artwork, architecture, documents, and secret rituals in this novel are accurate.” I will demonstrate that his descriptions of “documents” are patently false and fabricated, twisted and misquoted, and deliberately misrepresented for the sake of Brown’s story.

(1) A key assertion in DVC is that Jesus was just a man who happened to be married to Mary Magdalene and that there was a Giant conspiracy to suppress this “truth.” “Almost everything our fathers taught us about Christ is false.” (DVC p. 235) The book further asserts that “a divine Christ was unknown in the church” before the Nicean council of 325 A.D.

It is asserted that the gospel accounts we have in our Bibles are not the earliest gospels, the earlier accounts (so says DVC) known today as the “Gnostic Gospels” discovered at Nag Hammadi, Egypt, are the earliest Christian records. In these texts we are told of the special relationship that existed between Mary and Jesus.

The book claims that the four gospels we have in our Bibles were selected by the Nicean council from 80 early gospels the majority of which would reveal the true nature of Jesus Christ. These “earlier gospels” were suppressed by a giant conspiracy, therefore this information is unknown today.

Ben Witherington III, professor of Biblical Studies at Asbury Theological Seminary, Wilmore, Ky. says:
“Among the 35 or so extant non canonical gospels are two Gnostic gospels that Dan Brown depends on most heavily in rewriting Jesus’ life: the Gospel of Philip and the Gospel of Mary. There is no credible evidence that either of these existed before late in the second century A.D. Indeed many scholars think they come from the third century A.D. By contrast, non scholars that I know, whatever their theological persuasion, think that the canonical Gospels are from any later than the last half of the first century or (in the case of the gospel of John) the first few years of the second century A.D. Our earliest extant gospel fragment is a portion of a papyrus of John 18 dating to the early second century A.D. (BAR article)

I have read and studied both gnostic gospels the “Gospel of Phillip” and the “Gospel of Mary” which DVC depends upon to present the concept of a close relationship between Mary and Jesus.

I will now read form the “proof” offered:

Gospel of Phillip :
“Some said, Mary conceived by the Holy Spirit, they are in error. They do not know what they are saying. When did a woman ever conceive by a woman? “

There it is, ladies and gentlemen, the PROOF TEXT of the new age movement. This is it. Notice what it says about the concept of God and inspiration.

Here is another example from the Gospel of Phillip:
Gospel of Phillip :
“The companion of the Savior is Mary Magdalene. But Christ loved her more than all the disciples and used to kss her often on the mouth. The rest of the disciples were offended by it and expressed disapproval. They said to him Why do you love her more that all of us”

Another passage says:
“There were three who always walked with the Lord: Mary, his mother, and his sister and Magdalene, the one who was his companion. His sister and his mother and his companion were each a Mary.”

Here we have a real LAUGH in the book as Brown has his experts ARGUE that the word “companion” in the Aramaic really means “spouse”, therefore, the Gospel of Phillip is CLEARLY telling us that Jesus was married. This is a REAL LAUGH because the gnostic gospels were written in COPTIC while Brown’s “experts” define words from another language!

Let me give you a few examples of the gross Biblical errors found in the gospel of Phillip:

Gospel of Phillip:
“Some neither desire to sin nor are able to sin”
Romans 3:23
“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,”
1 Jn. 1:8-10
8* If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us.
9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar and His word is not in us.

Gospel of Phillip:
“Adam came into being from two virgins, from the Spirit and from the virgin of earth.”

Genesis 2:7
“Then the LORD God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.”

Gospel of Phillip:
“There are two trees growing in Paradise. One Bears animals, the other bears men. Adam ate from the tree which bore animals. He became an animal and he brought forth animals. For this reason the children of Adam worship animals.”
Gen. 2:8-9
8* The LORD God planted a garden toward the east, in Eden; and there He placed the man whom He had formed.
9 Out of the ground the LORD God caused to grow every tree that is pleasing to the sight and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

Gospel of Phillip:
“The world came about through a mistake. For he who created it wanted to create it imperishable and immortal. He fell short of attaining his desire.”

Jeremiah 32:17
“‘Ah Lord GOD! Behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and by Your outstretched arm! Nothing is too difficult for You.”
Psalm 19:1-2
“The heavens are telling of the glory of God; And their expanse is declaring the work of His hands.
2 Day to day pours forth speech, And night to night reveals knowledge.”
Eph 1:4
“just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him. In love”
1Pe 1:20
“For He was foreknown before the foundation of the world, but has appeared in these last times for the sake of you”

As the above contridictions indicate the “gospel of Phillip” known to have been written by a gnostic in the third century teaches grevious doctrinal error.

Let me give you another example of a PROOF TEXT from the gospel of Mary.

Gospel of Mary
“Peter, you are always irate. Now I see that you are contending against the woman like the adversaries. But if the Savior made her worthy, who are you to reject her? Surely the Savior knew her very well. For this reason he loved her more than us.”

Folks, there it is, the PROOF that Brown and the new agers offer for the “sacred femine” and the marriage of Jesus.

The “gospel of Mary” comes to us from the 3rd century A.D. It is written on papyrus, in Coptic, the first six pages have been lost. We have NO history as to the transmission or translation of the text. No scholars are attributed to the translation of either gnostic accounts we have cited above.

The Gnostic Gospels are a diverse collection of documents written by an early group of false teachers known as the “Gnostics” (Greek word for “higher knowledge”(epiginosis). The Gnostics were not even remotely concerned about giving a narrative of the life of Christ, as our inspired Gospel records or in recording a biography of the historical Jesus. The purpose of the Gnostics was to claim a “higher knowledge” then existed generally in the church. The emphasis in gnostic writings tends to be more on esoteric wisdom.

The Gnostics were followers of a variety of religious movements which stressed salvation through “gnosis” (Greek) or ‘knowledge’, above all of one’s origins. What is known as “Cosmological dualism” among scholars, was an essential feature of Gnosticism. The material creation is EVIL, only “Sophia” (spiritual wisdom) is good. Most Gnostics held that Christ was NOT truly incarnated, nor could he truly suffer on the cross. Since all matter is evil Christ would never have inhabited a physical body. The Gnostics taught that “higher knowledge” was needed to allow good Gnostics to escape from the prison of their bodies at death and traverse the planetary spheres of hostile demons to be reunited with God. Salvation was found in knowledge, not in faith. Some Gnostics indulged deliberately in licentious behavior. Carpocrates, for example, urged his followers to sin, and his son Epiphanes taught that promiscuity was God’s law. Most Gnostics, however, took a radically “ascetic” attitude toward sex and marriage deeming the creation of woman the source of evil and the procreation of children but the multiplication of souls in bondage to the powers of darkness. They looked forward to the time when females would be transformed into males, as in Eden prior to the creation of woman.

2 John 7-11
7* For many deceivers have gone out into the world, those who do not acknowledge Jesus Christ as coming in the flesh. This is the deceiver and the antichrist.
8 Watch yourselves, that you do not lose what we have accomplished, but that you may receive a full reward.
9 Anyone who goes too far and does not abide in the teaching of Christ, does not have God; the one who abides in the teaching, he has both the Father and the Son.
10* If anyone comes to you and does not bring this teaching, do not receive him into your house, and do not give him a greeting;
11 for the one who gives him a greeting participates in his evil deeds.

By the middle of the 2nd century the early church fathers Irenaeus, Hippolytus and Tertullian criticized the gnostic gospels. They were NEVER considered inspired by the main stream church. They were NOT the earliest accounts, most scholars believe that the gnostics gospels did not arrive on the scene until the second half of the second century.

DVC says “constantine attempted to eradicate “the earlier” gospels (gnostic gospels) but some survived. “The Dead Sea Scrolls were found in the 1950’s hidden in a cave near Qumran in the Judean desert. And of course the Coptic Scrolls in 1945 at Nag Hammadi.” (DVC p. 234)

DVC - “The scrolls highlight glaring historical discrepancies and fabrications, clearly confirming that the modern Bible was compiled and edited by men who possessed a political agenda - to promote the divinity of the man Jesus Christ.” (DVC p.234)

This is patently untrue. This one really makes me laugh. The Nag Hammadi texts were never considered part of the Bible, they date from the thrid century. The Dead Sea Scrolls have noting to do New Testament teaching, they were copies of Old Testament prophets. We know that the Dead Sea Scrolls were put into caves about 100 years B.C. There a absolutely no glaring discrepancies between the Scrolls and the Old Testament, in fact quite the opposite is true. Untill the discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls in 1948 the oldest copy of Isaiah in existance was from about 1000 A.D. When the Scroll of Isaiah found at Qumran was compaired with the Scroll from 1000 A.D. there were virtually NO DIFFERENCES.


*Would it be strange for a 30 year old man to be single?

*It’s the silence of the Scriptures that speak most loudly to this issue. Jesus was never married.

The diety of Christ is a cardinal doctrine of the N.T.

What do the Scriptures Say?

Two important passage to consider:

2 Pet 1:1
"Simon Peter, a bond-servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who have received a faith of the same kind as ours, by the righteousness of our God and Savior, Jesus Christ"

Titus 2:13
"looking for the blessed hope and the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Christ Jesus,"

As you know, the NAS'95 is probably the most accurate translation of the New Testament available today. Many discoveries have been made since the translation of the KJV. The "Grandville Sharpe Rule" (very technical) of Greek requires that "God and Savior Jesus Christ" be translated precisely in the way you see it in the above two verses.

There is NO article in the Greek.

Here are a few of passages to consider:
Col. 1:13-20
13 For He rescued us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son,
14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
15 He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation.
16 For by Him all things were created, both in the heavens and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities--all things have been created through Him and for Him.
17 He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.
18 He is also head of the body, the church; and He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, so that He Himself will come to have first place in everything.
19 For it was the Father's good pleasure for all the fullness to dwell in Him,
20 and through Him to reconcile all things to Himself, having made peace through the blood of His cross; through Him, I say, whether things on earth or things in heaven.

Phil. 2:5-8
5 Have this attitude in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus,
6 who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped,
7 but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men.
8 Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.

Heb. 1:1-4
1 God, after He spoke long ago to the fathers in the prophets in many portions and in many ways,
2 in these last days has spoken to us in His Son, whom He appointed heir of all things, through whom also He made the world.
3 And He is the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature, and upholds all things by the word of His power. When He had made purification of sins, He sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,
4 having become as much better than the angels, as He has inherited a more excellent name than they.

John 1:1-3
1 ¶ In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
2 He was in the beginning with God.
3 All things came into being through Him, and apart from Him nothing came into being that has come into being.

Many additional passages could be considered, but these should be enough to prove the point from the Scriptures that Jesus is God. Notice these clear statements:

Col. 1: 16 "For by Him all things were created"
Phil. 2:6 "He existed in the form of God"
Heb. 1:2 "through whom also He made the world"
Heb. 1:3 "He is the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature"
John 1:3 - “the Word was God”

There is not a single Scholar that I am aware of that dates these passages to some time AFTER the Nicean council of 325 A.D. These passages existed long before the council put their stamp of approval on the deity of Jesus.The early church fathers accepted all of the above passages as “god-breathed” and therefore as the final word concerning the deity of Jesus hundreds of years before the Nicean council.

(FROM BAR) Constantine was the bad guy who suppressed the earlier (Gnostic) Gospels and imposed the canonical Gospels and the doctrine of the divinity of Christ on the church. In fact, long before the days of Constantine, and even before the Gnostic Gospels existed, the four canonical Gospels were circulating together as authoritative sources in the church. This may have occurred as early as 125 A.D. since Irenaeus knows of this; the Muratorian fragment—the earliest canon list,** dating to the second or third century A.D.—lists the Four Gospels as authoritative for the church; in the second century, the heretic Marcion accepted the Gospel of Luke alone as the appropriate source for knowledge about the historical Jesus. By 325 A.D. the Alexandrian bishop Athanasius in the East and the papal see in the West recognized only the four canonical Gospels, and indeed only the 27 books we now know as the New Testament. It is simply not true that the Gnostic Gospels were suppressed prior to the formation of the canon: They just weren’t recognized as authoritative either by the eastern or western church. Lack of recognition is not the same as suppression.

DVC says “Constantine attempted to eradicate ‘the earlier’ gospels (gnostic gospels) but some survived. The Dead Sea Scrolls were
found in the 1950’s hidden in a cave near qumran in the Judean desert. And of course the Coptic Scrolls in 1945 at Nag Hammadi.” (DVC p.234)

This is another lie. The “gnostic gospels” were never considered genuine and Constantine never attempted to eradicate them.

Another error - Jesus must have been married because he was a Jew.

The DVC calls into question the inspiration of the Scriptures. If you can’t trust “practically everything your fathers every told you about Christ” then practically everything in the Scriptures is a lie.

2 Tim. 3:16-17
16 All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness;
17 so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.
1* I solemnly charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by His appearing and His kingdom:
2 preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction.
3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires,
4 and will turn away their ears from the truth and will turn aside to myths.

In verse 16 the word translated “Scripture” is from the Greek word “graphe” used by the Holy Spirit to indicate the writings of the apostles and prophets of the first century. It is a special word adopted by the Holy Spirit to desiginate inspired writing. Notice:

2 Peter 3:16
“as also in all his letters, speaking in them of these things, in which are some things hard to understand, which the untaught and unstable distort, as they do also the rest of the Scriptures, to their own destruction.”


No offense intended to anyone ... but I just couldn't resist addressing this issue!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Poem - I choose Life

I Choose Life - AnupR

At the crossroads she stands
She beckons
She even calls out my name
She then stretches out her hands
Offering refuge from the doubts and questions
... that plague young minds

And then she says,
"Pain is all that's left
Rejection is all you're ever gonna get
and you may try but you'll never forget
the way she left you bereft

I'm the cure to your misery
I'm the one who can set you free
Just entrust yourself to me
Just spend the night with me"

But I am just down ... not out
and I know what she's talking about
So I hurry right by where she's standing
I don't stop ... not even glancing
And as I pass she hears me saying

"The pain and the worry
Is just temporary
The future's uncertain
... sometimes it does frighten me
But, in your arms if I spend the night
I'd sleep forever
And that just wouldn't be right

Why do you forget
that I'm not only a heartbroken lover
I'm also a son, a friend, a brother
and I'm certainly not in any hurry
... to stand before the Creator

So, hear this, beautiful Ma'm
Listen to me ... and forget not this day
I see right thru your pretty sham
and I don't give a damn
... for what you have to say

I choose life!"

Yes, yes, I know ... I should be studying ... not blogging ... but, all the studying seems to be getting my creative juices flowing too! ... I got this one last night as I lay down to sleep ... and I couldn't help but jot it down ... and what I jotted ... I shared .... :)

Thanks a lot for all your best wishes, dear buddies ... :)
I'm studing hard!


Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Poem - But its fine

Poem - But it's fine
by AnupR

I'm in love with a girl who can't be mine
I feel a lil' bit sad
But it's fine

For I don't want to cross the line
Can't risk this friendship going bad
I'm in love with a girl who can't be mine

Daily, for her my heart does pine
It drives me mad
But it's fine

For when she's around, it feels divine
And my weary soul becomes glad
I'm in love with a girl who can't be mine

When she talks, shivers run down my spine
Something so good can be so damn bad!
But it's fine

I won't grumble and I won't whine
It's real and not just a passing fad
I'm in love with a girl who can't be mine

For love is the finest wine
And as its biggest drunkard,
I'm in love with a girl who can't be mine
But it's fine

Firstly, thanks a lot CA for the notes u sent on Villanelle ... this was my first shot at something structured ... and thanks for the encouragement, buddy! :)

Secondly, I'd just like to mention that this is something written now, drawing on something I've gone thru in the recent past ... but this is not what I'm in right now ...

I'm no longer 'in love' with anybody ... sad, eh? ... not really .... coz' instead of being obsessed with being in love with that special one ... presently, I'm just having fun ... enjoying the love that's in friendship/family/and other cherished relationships ...

BTW, this is probably gonna be my last post until my exams are over in mid-May. I've got to hit the books ... especially, since my office work has taken over most of my time so far ... and time's running out ...

But, I will drop by occassionally to catch up on what u guys are up to ... and so that u guys don't forget me .... (so selfish, eh?) ... lolz ... :)

And wish u all a very Happy HOLIday ... sorry that I couldn't visit ur blogs individually and wish u ... but, was with the books so far ... and I'm gonna go back to them books as soon as I hit the "Publish Post" button ... :)

Ciao buddies!


Saturday, March 11, 2006

Short(?) Story - Just Friends?.

Eliza: Where were you? You were to meet me here an hour ago!

Alvin: Sorry 'bout that buddy. Was at the Economics lecture.

Eliza: But you've not even opted for it!

Alvin: Actually, Mischa requested me to take notes. She had something to do.

Eliza: Ya. I'm sure she was out shopping, while you were taking notes ... while I was waiting for you like a fool!

Alvin: C'mon ... don't talk about her like that ... you know she's a good friend ...

Eliza: Who are you trying to fool with that load of crap?

Alvin: What do you mean?

Eliza: You are only fooling yourself if you think no one knows.

Alvin: Knows what?

Eliza: That you love her!

Alvin: Whatever gave you that idea?

Eliza: Lets see ... you treat her like she's some princess ... you ignore everyone else when she's around ... you keep going out of your way to try and make her happy ... and I'm really bugged by the way your face lights up everytime she smiles. You look like a pathetic love-struck moron ... you always gaze at her like a puppy adores his master ... If you had a tail, I'm sure it would start wagging as soon as you caught a whiff of her perfume!

Alvin: You're calling your best friend a dog!

Eliza: You didn't have the decency to call and tell me you're running late! ... and you claim to be my best friend! hmph! ... would you ever do this to Mischa???

Alvin: lol ... so, that's what's bugging you ... I'm really sorry ... C'mon lets have lunch ... I'm famished! .... you know that lecture was so boring ........

(During lunch ..... the conversation continues ... )

Eliza: So when are you going to tell her?

Alvin: What?

Eliza: That you love her?

Alvin: Can't we talk about something else? ...

Eliza: She obviously means much more to you than anyone else ... It's clear as daylight to everyone else ... coz' you're the worst actor I know! ... The way you behave when she's around ... the way you treat her ... the way you talk to her ... the way you listen to every word she speaks ... it all points to just one undeniable fact .... You are in love with Mischa!

Alvin: Of course I love her!

Eliza: See, I knew it all along ... You ..

Alvin: Hold on ... I love Mischa, just as I love you. Just as a friend. Nothing more. I love her. But I'm not in love with her.

Eliza: What's the difference?

Alvin: For me, 'being in love' has romantic connotations ... it throws up visions of dreamy-eyed lovers, holding hands and whispering sweet-nothings ... dreaming of eternity while the present slips away ... But, good old 'love' is ... something that's the base of every succesful relationship ... including friendship ...

Eliza: I don't agree. I know that the love parents have for their children is something rock-solid. But, I'm not sure how one can ever really classify what one feels towards anyone else ... I mean, there's attraction, infatuation, affection, even lust ... a combination of these can be easily rightly or wrongly interpreted as love. And you, my friend are saying that you know the difference between 'loving someone' and 'being in love with someone'! Impossible! You don't know what you're talking about ... you just want to continue living in denial ...

Alvin: Look, I never told you that I know the difference. I just said - "For me, it is ..." And what do you mean by 'living in denial'?

Eliza: That you're in love with Mischa and are too afraid to tell her and mess up the friendship ...

Alvin: You just don't understand that there is love in every true friendship, then!

Eliza: So, is there something like false frienships too?

Alvin: I said 'true friendships' because most of the people you call friends aren't really your friends ...

Eliza: Then what are they?

Alvin: Acquaintances.

Eliza: Hmm?

Alvin: Let me explain it this way. You're one of my closest friends... but, I don't consider Sandy or Vicky, or even Bret to be friends ... they are acquaintances ... Coz' though we hang out, share laughs, and freak out almost everyday, I don't really know them ... and they don't really know me ... Friendship takes time and patience, forgiveness and understanding, a lot of trust .... basically, friedship needs love ...

For partying and having fun, their company is fine, but, when it comes to the really important things in life, I only turn to my friends ... like you ... like Mischa ... For I can trust you completely with all my secrets ... I can count on you to just hear me out and not judge me ... I can count on you to criticize me or encourage me and even compliment me to my face ... no nonsense ... I like my acquaintances, but I love my friends ... do you get it now?

Eliza: I'm not totally convinced ... I still think you're only fooling yourself ... In fact, I'm sure Mischa also knows that you like her ... and she's just enjoying the attention and the affection ... after all, who doesn't want attention? ... who doesn't want to be loved?

But, I'm happy for you buddy. You seem so much happier nowadays. So what if you are living in a state of delusion? At least you're happy! Hehe ... lolz

Alvin: You're impossible Eliza ... lolz ... I'll see you tommorow. Same time. Except, I'll be sure to call if I'm running late. Okay? lol

Eliza: Okay buddy. You do that ...

(Eliza watches Alvin walk away ... and ...)

Eliza: I know you love her Alvin. I know you're satisfying your urge to shower love and affection on her under the cover of friendship ... she's enjoying the love, affection and attention ... you're enjoying every moment you spend with her ... But what about me? Should I remain silent or should I end this charade and just tell you ... tell you that I'm in love with you ... my best friend ...
....... Maybe tommorow ....


Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Monkey Business ....

For the past 2 months I've been rubbishing rumours that 3 monkeys had taken up residence in my locality ... I mean sure, there are a lot of trees and wide open spaces around ... but this is Bombay, guys! ... there can't be monkeys running around here? ... or can they?

... apparently they can ... here are a few snaps where they're leisurely enjoying the sunset ... just chilling out after a hard day ... even getting some beauty treatment done ...

How did they get here? ... Why are they here? ...

I've got two theories:

1. Join politics -
One of our nation's founding fathers seemed to like monkeys (see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil ... does that ring a bell?) ... also, the city does seem to be run by a bunch of monkeys ... banging the desks in parliament, screeching and screaming, throwing mikes and tantrums ... I think they'd fit right in! ... I mean there's no way things could be run in a worse fashion ... so lets give peace and these monkeys a chance ... to run for office ... :)

2. Join the movies -
Seeing movies such as Chronicles of Narnia and Lord of the Rings, they probably think they have a chance ... plus they can do their own stunts (if animal rights activists such as Maneka G allow) ... but somehow I don't think Chronicles of Narnia will be rehashed anytime soon by Bollywood ... :) ... but, they do have the attitude of stars ... coz' when I got too close with my cellphone camera clicking away to glory, they snapped and showed off their teeth ... and no, they weren't smiling! ... I've seen enough Discovery Channel and 'When Animals Attack' to know when to run away ... lolz ... :)

Friday, March 03, 2006

A question 'bout life ....

I was at an office party recently, and despite the fun I was having, a thought flashed ... "this would've been so much better if 'MNO' was here" ... and then I went back to having fun ...

On my way home, I started thinking of what had happened ... I'd missed a dear friend ... but just for an instant ... wasn't I a good friend? ... Sure, I would meet my buddy the next day, and we'd share a few laughs as I recounted the happenings ... so it's not such a big deal ... but that wasn't the issue vexing me ...

... human frailty never ceases to amaze me ... life is precious and oh so fleeting ... life is just so unpredictable ... all the dreams that I've dared to dream ... all these plans that I've dared to draw ... it may all end abruptly ... it takes nine months for life to take the shape of a human ... but it may not even take a few seconds for it all to end ... what then?

"As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth
For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more" (Psalm 103)

... I believe that we're going to a better place after our time down here is up ... but, while I'm still here, I can't help but (selfishly) wonder about how many will miss me when I'm gone ... and if they will miss me ... for how long? ...

I know that it wouldn't really make any difference to me (after I'm gone), but for now, there's something ... call it selfishness, insecurity, wannabe ego boost, a craving for recognition/fame ... or just the reassurance that I've been a significant part of many people's lives ... that I've contributed positvely (added value) to their lives ... that they've loved me ... and they'll miss me ... when I'm gone ...

Isn't the desire to be misssed by someone, a need that's just as basic as the need to be loved? ... or is it just me on one of my melancholic trips? :)

For now, I'm just gonna take every day for what it truly is ... a present ... a gift ... and try to live as best as I know how ... and aim to leave behind pleasant memories in hearts of many ... that after I'm gone, once in a while I'll pop up in their memories and they'll recall fun times ... that they'll associate me forever with pleasant happenings in the past ... that would be my claim to a bit of immortality down here ....

I never promised any answers ... I only have questions ... I just wanted you to think on these lines ... Have I succeeded???

Hey Keshi! ... so, I kept my promise and posted it today! :) ... I still think you handled the topic much much better ... but this is the way I am buddy! :)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Slow down?

I wasn't feeling too well .... nothing serious .... but decided to stay home, rest and also catch up on my studies ... [exams are in May! ... and have hardly studied in recent times due to work-pressure :( ]

After quite a while I took a leisurely stroll on the terrace, and was thrilled to see a beautiful sunrise ... have a look at it urself -

.... and then I had another one of my crazy(?) thoughts ... all sunrises/sunsets are beutiful .... looking at the vast expanse of the sky is always a humbling experience .... there is beauty all around .... but I don't notice it all!

.... mornings - I'm too busy rushing to the office to care about the crisp morning breeze or the chirping birds or the beautiful sky where fluffy pillows race .... and in the evening I'm too preoccupied with the commute to bother about anything else ...

It's just too sad that I needed a trip to Khandala to make me aware of the beauty all around me ... I mean, isn't it a silly thing? ... when u go on one of these excursions, you just can't stop clicking snaps and go "ooh" and "aah" as the sun breaks the grip of the horizon and appears to all ...

.... picknickers from Bombay, while in Matheran (a hill-station retreat) wake up really early and hike many kilometers to one of the "sunrise points" just so they can watch the sun rise in all its glory .... they cheer and clap as the sun rises ... and take countless snaps to preserve those moments ....

.... is the sunrise less glorious in Bombay? .... how come we never notice it in Bombay, but go out of our way to appreciate it when we are out of the city?

All I know is that I need to slow down a bit ... maybe take it down a notch ... appreciate and enjoy this gift of life a lil' bit more ... one sunrise at a time .... what say u????

Poet at work ...

Well, you guys may not believe this, but I'm considered to be a smart-alec, mischievous, funny and fun-loving at work ... and at the same time I'm one of the most hard(ly)-working(?) chaps in the team .. ;)

To give u an insight into that aspect of my life ... and provide some comic relief, I've set up a different blog to capture some funny moments (or even funny forwards that we enjoyed at work) ...

I must warn u that a few of the posts over there may require knowledge of Hindi ... but, I'm sure that once I start putting up my fav jokes and forwards, my only-English speaking buddies will also enjoy it ...

Here's the link if you're game for it .... :)

Love ya All my dear friends
Thanks a lot for being around and encouraging me when I was really down ... now I feel my creative streak come alive again!

... Keshi, I really wanna post the article I told u about but it's not yet done ... maybe by saturday? ... I'm just too caught up in work... and u've told me to just chill when too busy, na? :)

- Anup